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I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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Day 14 Bereaved Parents Awareness Month www.youtube.com/watch
When your child dies before you do, you will never get over it, move on, put it behind you, or any of the catchphrases that are so common to say when you don’t know what to say and really shouldn’t say anything at all.
We live in such a fast paced world and I think people expect grief, sadness, heartache, emptiness and every other emotion or feeling that storms the souls of bereaved parents because we had to bury our child, should be held up to this invisible standard that seems to exist in their world but certainly not in mine. I’ll continue to get through. Everyone grieves differently. I have chosen to blog, to connect with others who are on a similar journey as I am. To teach others what life is like after tragedy barges through your door. To hopefully offer encouraging words to some as I continue on in this world, missing my 1st born son that made me a Mother. 💗