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I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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Bereaved Parents Awareness Month.
My boy loved to laugh and have fun.
I like to laugh and have fun too.
About a month ago my friend and workout buddy told me the my smile seemed more real lately.
She said my smile and laugh seemed forced for awhile.
I totally agree with her, and it made me feel good.
I still have hard days. I probably always will.
However, I still have reasons to laugh and smile.
Please don’t mistake that for being “over” or “past” my Son’s tragic death.
Logan’s kindergarten bus driver shared a post with me about country singer George Strait. I didn’t realize that he lost his 13-year-Old daughter due to a tragic car accident.
I’ve always said George Strait is my favorite male country singer. Maybe it was because he kept going. I didn’t know his history but there was something about him and his that I always liked.
He’s got some great songs but this song reminds me of how Billy felt about life.
He was here for a good time.
It certainly wasn’t long enough and in his case, I am so grateful and blessed that he did leave Logan behind.