I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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You know when you’re hungry and you order a pizza and you think “I can eat the whole thing!”
Perhaps you eat it a little bit too fast and you might get heartburn or it might not go down that well and you need to drink something to force it down.
Delicious!
I think maybe that’s how I’m feeling right now about some recent events that have happened in our lives.
I I’m actually very grateful for what happened and how it happened and how it did not happen, if that makes sense.
“Gratitude opens your eyes to the endless Opportunities that expectation has hidden. “– Steve MaraBolli
Maybe I want to shout it from the rooftops and tell the whole world!
Sometimes I just need to be quiet, and maybe I need to just whisper.
Like an onion has many layers that you peel back. If you peel it, it probably won’t make your eyes water but if you cut it, you cut through those layers too quickly and you have burning tears.
5 Non Blondes and a Senseless Murder 