I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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I had the opportunity to talk to my Aunt Barbara today.
She lives in Texas. We were catching up for a little while and I realized during our conversation that I never had a chance to tell her about the scripture verse that flooded my soul the moment after I heard that my son had died.
For the LORD does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.” 1st Samuel 16:7
I knew at that moment that no matter what anyone else thought, God saw Billy’s heart and he was with Him.
When God Ran is the name of the song and it’s about the prodigal son. I just knew that God ran to Billy on that Philadelphia street and brought him home.
It did my heart good to tell Aunt Barbara the two special things that God gave me to comfort me after Billy died. We agreed that God saw Billy’s heart and that God did indeed run to Billy. It was so nice to share those things with her. I hold onto those 2 things and remember them often. God promises to comfort those mourn. He certainly provided comfort today through my Aunt Barbara.