I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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“There is in every true woman’s heart, a spark of heavenly fire,which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity, but which kindles up and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity.”~ Washington Irvine
I wouldn’t wish the tremendous loss of a child on anyone. It is tragic beyond words. Tears flow, sobs are choked back, they come at the most inconvenient times and places and sometimes over the most basic everyday things. The heart literally aches and sometimes you don’t know how you will breathe your next breath.
You go on because you have to, you choose too, you need too.
Even though the hour of adversity lasts much longer than sixty minutes, it brings out of one’s self what has been deliberately and faithfully put in over time.
I have found that the heavenly fire spoken of does indeed kindle up, beam and blaze and when a woman’s heart is on fire with righteousness, love, justice and truth, people will come and watch you burn.
5 Non Blondes and a Senseless Murder 