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I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! Two Grandsons ages 11and 12 and a precious 6 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 12 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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I love it when people say Billy’s name in a conversation. It warms my heart. I need to talk about him. Remember him, tell stories about him or speak of how he would feel about something,like something, laugh at something…
I have always said that you never know what can happen in a year. This time last year I had no idea. Life can change in a heartbeat. How I wish I could go back in time.
I find it thought-provoking that people who have never been through it are usually the ones who have the most advice to give.
This truly is the bottom line. We all said that in the beginning when we didn’t know what to say. We were bewildered and in shock, shaking our heads, not able to believe this could happen to us. To our family. To Billy…
Little changes add up to big change. Some changes are good, others are heartbreaking. Either way. I look at life differently, I look at death differently.
Everything is different.
5 Non Blondes and a Senseless Murder 
Warm wishes for u💐
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