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I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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I recently posted about my little teddy bear. The Post is titled ” What Would Billy Do?” If you would like to read a little more about it.
Here is Day 7 post of bereavedparentsawarenessmonth. July 7th.
Billy gave me the W.W.J.D bear on the left when he was about 4 years old.
I held onto it all these years.
I almost gave it back to him in his late teen years as a reminder of What Would Jesus Do?
I decided to keep it because it was his gift to me when I wasn’t making the best decisions.
After Billy died, his son Logan found the little white bear with the cross and said “that’s the son bear and the bigger bear (wwjd) is the Daddy bear, they belong together”
I think Jesus would want us to remember that Daddy loved us and loved the time he had with us.
That it’s good to talk about our Daddy memories and make new memories.
Most of all, to look for Jesus in the simple pleasures of everyday life.