I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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I was bracing myself for the 2nd Christmas without Billy to be worse than the 1st.
I’ve heard many people say that the 2nd year is harder than the 1st year.
For me personally, the 1st was worse.
Jami, me and Dad Christmas of 2018
I don’t know if having a nervous breakdown in October had something to do with my perception, but, I know that I know that my son is safe and happy.
I wrote about my breakdown aka breakthrough and you can read about it in my blog. “ A Grain of Wheat” and “ Spiritually Minded”
I treasure every sign that Heaven sends to let me know that Billy is more than good. I smile. I even cry happy tears, knowing that someday we are going to have quite the reunion!
Yesterday marked 23 months ago that he was senselessly murdered.
The 2 year mark is right around the corner…
I have to see it as 2 years closer to when I’ll see him again.
I have my bad days, bad hours,and bad moments but over all, my attitude and my faith in Jesus are what carry me through to the next moment. The next season.The next life.
Do you know where you will spend your forever?
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In the face of such horrific circumstances you are an AMAZING testament of the power of Christ Jesus working in our lives, hearts and souls. Love you precious sister! ❤️💔❤️
In the face of such horrific circumstances you are an AMAZING testament of the power of Christ Jesus working in our lives, hearts and souls. Love you precious sister! ❤️💔❤️
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