I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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Two short years ago on Christmas morning I got the best gift a mother could wish for.
Billy came home for Christmas.
He was debating whether or not to come home and he came home for me.
I met him at the door and we hugged. It was the kind of hug where you hold on and you don’t let go. Literately and figuratively our hearts touched. I felt that hug all the way to my heart. The whole area around my physical heart got warm and when someone says that their heart melted, mine truly did.
While we were hugging I said “ Someone take a picture!” My daughter Virginia captured the moment.
That hug was the most special hug we shared since his birth and we’ve shared many. The only hug that will ever top that one is when we meet again in Heaven.
I for one cannot wait.
Hug your children, even if you’re not “huggers.” Someday when of you is no longer here, you’ll be so glad you did.
5 Non Blondes and a Senseless Murder 