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I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗
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2 years ago today my son was murdered. Stabbed to death on a cold, dark Philadelphia street.
There are no words to accurately describe it. Literally or figuratively.
I don’t like the word anniversary.
Here are the definitions of the word.
Definition of anniversary
1: the annual recurrence of a date marking a notable event a wedding anniversarybroadly : a date that follows such an event by a specified period of time measured in units other than years the 6-month anniversary of the accident
2: the celebration of an anniversary
The 2nd definition alone, the celebration of the anniversary, eludes to happiness. I’m not happy to be celebrating my son’s death.
I think a word like deathiversary is a more fitting word. Or Annideathary. What do you think?
I’ve been struggling a lot lately and I have not had much to say. Thank you for your prayers. I really appreciate them.
You’re in my prayers precious Corinne. My heart hurts so badly for you and it sounds so insignificant but I’m so sorry for your loss and pain. Deathaversary definitely sounds more appropriate. May the grace of the only true God carry you every moment of every day, and may the Comforter pour out His love in you perpetually, and carry every grief, burden and sorrow in your heart. Love you dearly ❤️💔❤️
I teared up reading your posts about Billy. He was one of the most genuine people I’ve ever met. When he passed we weren’t in good terms and it’s something I think about and regret every day of my life. Billy was a light in this world.
Hi Amber, Thank you for your kind words about Billy. I’m sure he wouldn’t want you to live with that regret. Think about the good times you had. That’s what I try to do. May God bless you Amber. Love, Corinne~ Billy’s Mother💗