Peace isn’t a word that we are hearing these days. Quarantine , virus and pandemic are words that are constantly in the news media and our news feeds. That promotes fear,not peace.

I wanted to give you a quick update since you haven’t heard from me in awhile.

In my last post, I shared my journey with the darkness of depression.

It’s not something that I personally ever walked through before, so navagaiting through the unknown was overwhelming.

Through it all I kept praying, I kept my routine, going to the gym, but I just wasn’t myself and I needed help to feel better.

I’m typically not a prescription medicine person. More of a supplement, vitamin person but, since the death of my son, I’ve realized that sometimes prescription medicine is necessary.

My goal is to be medication free but for now, one step at a time.I’m glad to be doing so much better.

I’ve been thinking about this pandemic that we are going through and the changes that are happening because of it as far as how similar it could be to my grief. I don’t grieve everyday although I think about my son Billy every single day. Maybe I should say my grief isn’t as heavy.

I’ve found myself thinking about how many people aren’t getting to celebrate Birthday’s. My son Jami turns 21 in a week and a half. Are we going to be able to celebrate?

How many people can’t even honor their loved ones by having a funeral?  I feel so bad for those who can’t come together during such a sorrowful time.  Billy’s funeral or celebration of life service as I like to call it, was a much needed and special time for my family. I can’t even imagine a virtual funeral!

What about the postponed weddings, the milestone anniversary celebrations, and senior proms. All forms of loss. Perhaps not at all like the loss of a child but loss none the less.

Maybe you have temporarily lost your job due to this pandemic?

Many of us have lost our daily routines and may not know what to do with ourselves!

How in the world can we have peace in these times?

Well peace definitely doesn’t come from the world! No matter how hard we try to find it,we will never be at peace with the things this world has to offer.

Peace, true peace comes from the knowledge of God or knowing God. It doesn’t even come from praying for peace. How do I know that?

God’s Word says in 2 Peter 1:2  “Grace and peace be multiplied unto you through the knowledge of God, and of Jesus our Lord.”

God is a multiplier, not a subtractor! Get to know Him through the Word of God. Listen to teachers and preachers of the Word. Believe me, you will overcome the fear that’s in the world when you listen to the faith that’s in the Word.

Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God.

If you are wondering what to listen to, I will give you the website that I’ve listened to for the last 8 years.

I have grown in my walk with the Lord and probably the most important thing I’ve learned is that peace comes from knowing God.

I was able to have peace even after my son was murdered because I know God.

I encourage you to stop watching and listening to things over and over that promote fear and listen to positive, uplifting, encouraging words that build faith!

I will pray that you will be able to trust the Lord during these times and as you do, He will keep you in perfect peace. Isaiah 26:3









  1. My condolences for your son who has passed. I couldn’t imagine that pain. My Mom knows the pain as we lost my sister 17 years ago.
    My prayers for you continue!


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