The Mommy In Me

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I am now a Mother that no one wants to be. I love my children more than life itself and my world got turned upside down when my 1st born son Billy, also known as Liam, was murdered by a stranger in a random act of violence. I have 3 remaining living, breathing, amazing children, 2 sons and 1 daughter, 3 living,breathing,amazing step-sons and each and every one is special,creative,and unique! I also have 3 beautiful grandchildren! 2 Grandsons ages 7and 8 and a precious 3 year old Granddaughter! My Grandson Logan, is Billy’s only child, he is now 8 years old. As my daughter says, he is the warm piece of Billy that we get to touch. I enjoy cherishing and taking care of my husband and my family, leading a healthy lifestyle in spirit, soul and body, clean eating, CrossFit, sunshine,rest, listening to music and singing along! I will never be who I was before this happened. I am dedicated to learn what I can, embrace the pain, and share my raw, wounded, healing heart that is daily changing due to this great tragedy. My hope is touch lives in many ways,no matter how big or small, in honor and in memory of my son, Billy.He will live on through my words, the words of his Mother and the hearts of his family💗 View all posts by cmadams

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Repost from July 17th.

Day 17 of bereaved parents awareness month.

There is a lot going on in these three pictures I chose.

The little girl on the bottom is me at 6 years old.

I had a school days memory album where I put every school picture, favorite subject, and what I wanted to be when I grew up.

My favorite subject was always gym class and what I wanted to be when I grew up NEVER changed from year to year starting in kindergarten- 12th grade.

My options were: airline stewardess, nurse, teacher or other—— fill in the blank.

I ALWAYS checked the “other” box and wrote Mother on the empty line.

That truly has always been the desire of my heart, even as a young child.

Mistakes, heartache, good times and bad, I would never change a thing.

#ifmy6yearoldselfknewthenwhatiknownow

#iwoulddoitalloveragain

#mybabyboys1stchristmas

#3andahalfmonthsold

#ivealwayslovedbeingamommy

#imstillamother

#nowimananatoo

#ijustmissmyboy

#💗

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